28.7.07

i don't know wtf is wrong with it
but my friendster views has been jumping like don't know what.
i guess all these wrong stuff were always meant to come at the wrong time



things look better
looking back at the past week,
i can say I took a nice excursion to hell.
see how hell works,
the horrors it holds,
the nightmares it devour on,
the incubus it rains down on its victims.



everything was troubling; and by everything i meant everything.
of course, there were people who helped along the way. who helped a great deal.
ml, hj, lester, wq, zc, kass, just to name some of you
many more, who offered words of comfort
it didn't do much to erase the pain
yet it was nice to know you guys cared.







tonight, i had the most beautiful moments of my life, in many ways.
this weekend;
i reckon its the eye of a storm
that split instant when everything is at its calmest

thats why im treasuring every moment of it,
praying that this short-lived happiness can last for a few more weeks.
beliefs are strong tools, its the only thing that keeps men moving



from a society to economics to politics to academics to the common workplace;
without belief, mankind would be nothing.
its the solitary fuel behind every one of us,
a quiet force that keeps everyone spirited enough to fight on

I believe I can win this.
I believe I can score well.
I believe I can own you inside out.
I believe this can last forever.
I believe this is true.
I believe you are wrong.
I believe in myself.
I believe in you.
I believe I can clinch this deal.
I believe I can achieve this level.
I believe thisaintforever.

belief;
also known as faith, conviction, principle, creed, confidence, trust, certainty, credence, acceptance.

they're all the same, pushing us on in the umost unnoticeable ways.
there's alot more to come
but belief.
it'll keep me going




anyone out there who faces the same thing
he'll rely on belief.
its always the case.


only when one has lost all hope, all forms of belief whether in his loved ones or in himself
does the thought of suicide comes niggling on his mind












well its a long long road to go.
im not saying anything;
its good that i didn't blog cos that'll keep people away from here
all i want to affirm is that i have refounded that belief.
i have regained that faith that i have lost

imonmywayoutofthishurricane'seye now.





its a pretty okay weekend
much better than last week
and yet inferior in every sense to a happy day.